I want a ukulele

Because as far as I can see, everybody with a ukulele looks so happy. And every song sang in tune with a ukulele sounds so much happier. Like you could be singing Dead and Gone on ukulele and it will turn into Alive and Found. Haha. I want happiness when I sing and I want other people to see that. It's not like I'm not happy when I sing in the first place, it's just, I just want ukulele to feel cool. I can be happy without a ukulele, but with a ukulele I will be happier. And happiness is the key to love, and love is the key to my heart. Yes, the ukulele is the purpose for love. I have come to that conclusion. That A ukulele is where the heart is. Wow, I've said ukulele, in like every sentence. So to finish up this update I will say...that I desperatley want a ukulele, to feel happier than I already am.

Kapayapaan, mahal, at chaka tawa,

-Marikar<3

Vegas?

SO, Vegas, what to say about it? It probably wins in the "most people to make a mistake in one night" category. It's not really a place for me to chill. For example, I can't walk down the sidewalk without getting handed a card to a strip joint. What makes it even weirder is that while all of these things are happening as I walk down the sidewalk of Las Vegas' strip I encounter all these things with my parents. My parents are there as drunken girls are stumbling out of casino's, and they're there when the random group of guys decide to cuss as loud as they can....it's very awkward. Especially with my parents. But honestly, I don't mind the things the public does around me in Vegas, I deal, and plus, it's not like I can do anything about it. Maybe in a couple years I'll look at Vegas differently and end up being one of the girls stumbling out of a bar.
kapayapaan, mahal, at chaka tawa,(peace, love, and laughs)
marikar<3

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Dear summer,
So, there you go, the year for me is over. I'm no longer then youngest one in the bunch of older kiddos. Nothing feels different then they were in the beginning of the year. It just felt like school with new high school people. Freshman year wasn't what it was supposed to be for me. I was supposed to get out there and do things for the first time (doon't get it twisted). I felt like any regular student. I didn't feel older than the 8th graders or younger then the sophomores. It was weird. The funnest part I'd have to say though was meeting new friends. Without them I have no idea how I could've survived the school year. It's like all the new new students bonded together and became one group. We were like a family the whole year. And with that said, I just want to say that I love NATOMAS CHARTER SCHOOL. It's my home away from home. I get to go to school and express my art. For now, everything is perfect, but I think everything is pretty damn close to perfect. I want to thank you summer, for coming sooner than I hoped for, because school was about to drive me crazy, and also, thanks for being so enjoyable since the time I was born.

mahal,
marikar

You know when....

You get that chance to have your alone time. The time where everyone else in the world isn't listening and you're just free to do whatever you want? Yeah, well I don't know what to do with my time in those kind of situations. Maybe it's because there are so many things to do that I can't choose, or possibly because my group of ideas takes more than just one person to fullfill. I ultimatlely fail at alone time. If you were to leave me in a quiet, blank room and stared at me through the 2 way mirror, you will most likely see me just sitting...and sitting....and sitting. Or you may see me go absolutely crazy and i will most likely brake the 2 way mirror. It's these days that I'm alone from a half day at school that make me wonder. Why do I feel so alone? And why do I spazz everytime I hear a bird chirping outside my window. Basically the point I'm trying to reach is, sometimes a little alone time isn't what you need, perhaps it's life that drags you out of the house and makes you take in your surroundings. But it's also life that makes you stop at a good looking tree and suddenly blurt out "Man, that's a good looking tree." while your friends look at you and continue to walk away while you dare to still look at that good looking tree. But most likely it's just me who stares at trees and doesn't like alone time, but hey, if you're like me...YOU DARE TO BE DIFFERENT!

p.s.I understand this was pointless, but thank you for reading. I hope you got something out of it:)

FINALLY!

Finally, Marikar is updating on her stupid life. A lot has happened in the past couple weeks. Well first of all I just had my last singing concert as a freshman, sang my original song for my solo. and it didn't go so well. Check out the song at http://www.youtube.com/user/freakygeniusgirl! Yay me. KK. Then I had my final dance performance, don't have a youtube for tat, but it was pretty damn cool, the last performance was on Friday. My parents won a raffle for a bynch of giftcards, they screamed like filipinos when they won....classic. Then we went to mimis caffe, cause we got a giftcard from ther, classic. HAHA. Then this weekend happened, I have two hayuge prjects to do, one is due on Tuesday and te other is due in two weeks. Darn me and procrastination, our love cannot be broken. Englsih one is based on SHAKESPEARE! The language of confused love in my opinion. ROFL. Then there's friggin biology where I get the chance to play god andfix the human heart because our society is troubled and needs the heart to be fixed. STUPID BIO TEACHER! Well in other news, went to Claudines house today, pretty darn fun, Lyle and Arden was there and we had a bomb diggity time. We filipino partied it up. Yeayuhhh. Took some amazing pictures. Well ought to go back to the Jon & Kate plus 8 Marathon! Part of me can't wait for the season premiere and part of me doesn't want to wach it. I bet you I will cry. Sad Sad commercials. BOOHOO at TLC. Well then PEACE LOVE AND AJ!

Nothing Special:/

Yup, nothing at all has happened today...except tripping...again. Stupid ankle is never gonna get better. It hurts like a mofoo right now. GRDAMN. Anyhow just came back from Sinag-Tala, just sang like 3 times and went home. Drove 30 minutes to stay 20 minutes. Eh, well I still haven't gotten anything or my mom on mother's day. crappola. I have no idea what the heck she wants. Guess it's card time...again. Oh well I don't remember if I said this, but got a 94% on my Yolo Basin project. So happy about that, it was nice. I got my second A in biology. Stupid Fender doesn;t like me though, boohoo to that shiz. Anyhow, when I think of more to say I will come back to this uselesness

to be continued...

Is being continued. Sooo, then when we got home we had a party for Sinag-Tala (my second familia, singing and such). Not many people were there because I live all the way in Natomas, but we had fun. Oh and on Monday Sinag-Tala, including me ofcourse, performed at Raley Field. It was pretty awesome, there were cute *cough* guys. haha. But chyeeaaa. On an even lighter note. STAR TESTING IS OVAAHH! Super dooper happy about that. No more having to do testing in a music room. What was the dealio with that?! I wanted to be an educational room so I could feel more at peace. But noooo, the whole time we were testing I was distracted by a drum set right in front of my face. I mean I love Spiva, but forealsy I did not focus well. Yeah, today went by reheaaly slow. I did nothing but write and nap, my favorite things in life...oh and singing. haha. Well this was not an interesting post...sorry. haha