I want a ukulele

Because as far as I can see, everybody with a ukulele looks so happy. And every song sang in tune with a ukulele sounds so much happier. Like you could be singing Dead and Gone on ukulele and it will turn into Alive and Found. Haha. I want happiness when I sing and I want other people to see that. It's not like I'm not happy when I sing in the first place, it's just, I just want ukulele to feel cool. I can be happy without a ukulele, but with a ukulele I will be happier. And happiness is the key to love, and love is the key to my heart. Yes, the ukulele is the purpose for love. I have come to that conclusion. That A ukulele is where the heart is. Wow, I've said ukulele, in like every sentence. So to finish up this update I will say...that I desperatley want a ukulele, to feel happier than I already am.

Kapayapaan, mahal, at chaka tawa,

-Marikar<3

Vegas?

SO, Vegas, what to say about it? It probably wins in the "most people to make a mistake in one night" category. It's not really a place for me to chill. For example, I can't walk down the sidewalk without getting handed a card to a strip joint. What makes it even weirder is that while all of these things are happening as I walk down the sidewalk of Las Vegas' strip I encounter all these things with my parents. My parents are there as drunken girls are stumbling out of casino's, and they're there when the random group of guys decide to cuss as loud as they can....it's very awkward. Especially with my parents. But honestly, I don't mind the things the public does around me in Vegas, I deal, and plus, it's not like I can do anything about it. Maybe in a couple years I'll look at Vegas differently and end up being one of the girls stumbling out of a bar.
kapayapaan, mahal, at chaka tawa,(peace, love, and laughs)
marikar<3

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Dear summer,
So, there you go, the year for me is over. I'm no longer then youngest one in the bunch of older kiddos. Nothing feels different then they were in the beginning of the year. It just felt like school with new high school people. Freshman year wasn't what it was supposed to be for me. I was supposed to get out there and do things for the first time (doon't get it twisted). I felt like any regular student. I didn't feel older than the 8th graders or younger then the sophomores. It was weird. The funnest part I'd have to say though was meeting new friends. Without them I have no idea how I could've survived the school year. It's like all the new new students bonded together and became one group. We were like a family the whole year. And with that said, I just want to say that I love NATOMAS CHARTER SCHOOL. It's my home away from home. I get to go to school and express my art. For now, everything is perfect, but I think everything is pretty damn close to perfect. I want to thank you summer, for coming sooner than I hoped for, because school was about to drive me crazy, and also, thanks for being so enjoyable since the time I was born.

mahal,
marikar

You know when....

You get that chance to have your alone time. The time where everyone else in the world isn't listening and you're just free to do whatever you want? Yeah, well I don't know what to do with my time in those kind of situations. Maybe it's because there are so many things to do that I can't choose, or possibly because my group of ideas takes more than just one person to fullfill. I ultimatlely fail at alone time. If you were to leave me in a quiet, blank room and stared at me through the 2 way mirror, you will most likely see me just sitting...and sitting....and sitting. Or you may see me go absolutely crazy and i will most likely brake the 2 way mirror. It's these days that I'm alone from a half day at school that make me wonder. Why do I feel so alone? And why do I spazz everytime I hear a bird chirping outside my window. Basically the point I'm trying to reach is, sometimes a little alone time isn't what you need, perhaps it's life that drags you out of the house and makes you take in your surroundings. But it's also life that makes you stop at a good looking tree and suddenly blurt out "Man, that's a good looking tree." while your friends look at you and continue to walk away while you dare to still look at that good looking tree. But most likely it's just me who stares at trees and doesn't like alone time, but hey, if you're like me...YOU DARE TO BE DIFFERENT!

p.s.I understand this was pointless, but thank you for reading. I hope you got something out of it:)

FINALLY!

Finally, Marikar is updating on her stupid life. A lot has happened in the past couple weeks. Well first of all I just had my last singing concert as a freshman, sang my original song for my solo. and it didn't go so well. Check out the song at http://www.youtube.com/user/freakygeniusgirl! Yay me. KK. Then I had my final dance performance, don't have a youtube for tat, but it was pretty damn cool, the last performance was on Friday. My parents won a raffle for a bynch of giftcards, they screamed like filipinos when they won....classic. Then we went to mimis caffe, cause we got a giftcard from ther, classic. HAHA. Then this weekend happened, I have two hayuge prjects to do, one is due on Tuesday and te other is due in two weeks. Darn me and procrastination, our love cannot be broken. Englsih one is based on SHAKESPEARE! The language of confused love in my opinion. ROFL. Then there's friggin biology where I get the chance to play god andfix the human heart because our society is troubled and needs the heart to be fixed. STUPID BIO TEACHER! Well in other news, went to Claudines house today, pretty darn fun, Lyle and Arden was there and we had a bomb diggity time. We filipino partied it up. Yeayuhhh. Took some amazing pictures. Well ought to go back to the Jon & Kate plus 8 Marathon! Part of me can't wait for the season premiere and part of me doesn't want to wach it. I bet you I will cry. Sad Sad commercials. BOOHOO at TLC. Well then PEACE LOVE AND AJ!

Nothing Special:/

Yup, nothing at all has happened today...except tripping...again. Stupid ankle is never gonna get better. It hurts like a mofoo right now. GRDAMN. Anyhow just came back from Sinag-Tala, just sang like 3 times and went home. Drove 30 minutes to stay 20 minutes. Eh, well I still haven't gotten anything or my mom on mother's day. crappola. I have no idea what the heck she wants. Guess it's card time...again. Oh well I don't remember if I said this, but got a 94% on my Yolo Basin project. So happy about that, it was nice. I got my second A in biology. Stupid Fender doesn;t like me though, boohoo to that shiz. Anyhow, when I think of more to say I will come back to this uselesness

to be continued...

Is being continued. Sooo, then when we got home we had a party for Sinag-Tala (my second familia, singing and such). Not many people were there because I live all the way in Natomas, but we had fun. Oh and on Monday Sinag-Tala, including me ofcourse, performed at Raley Field. It was pretty awesome, there were cute *cough* guys. haha. But chyeeaaa. On an even lighter note. STAR TESTING IS OVAAHH! Super dooper happy about that. No more having to do testing in a music room. What was the dealio with that?! I wanted to be an educational room so I could feel more at peace. But noooo, the whole time we were testing I was distracted by a drum set right in front of my face. I mean I love Spiva, but forealsy I did not focus well. Yeah, today went by reheaaly slow. I did nothing but write and nap, my favorite things in life...oh and singing. haha. Well this was not an interesting post...sorry. haha

PACMAN!

Okay, wow. So I haven't updated in like foorrreeevver. But from the events that have happened today, I figured. Why not share it with thee world. Yessiree. Okay. Well PACMAN won the boxing fight. Yaysauce. The fambam spent it at my ninangs house. Oh my eff. Filpino rule: Avoid sticking large amounts of filipinos in one house. Well the fight was pretty darn short. Pacman knocked that British full out before the second round even effing ended. That's what I call a janky fight. Haha, but we all had fun. We even stayed after since it was so short. Just got home at like 12:40. But furreal, Pacman is my filipino hero, rofl. In other news the school vocal performance was yerterday. Did some amazin singin. It was hella long according to my brothers, who is a very impatient person. turns out my dad didn't put the memory card in my camera, so he couldn't video tape anything. Silly daddy. BUT THEN!......

to be continued:)

That's Life.

TRUTH! I'm bored as heck, today was the first day alone at the house, without any parents. I hought to myself "Finally, time alone, I'm gonna have the time of my life" WRONG. It was so quiet I spent my time wondering why it was so quiet. I nearly died. I spent my time watching countless hannah montana episodes and Quest Crew youtube videos. You read write....Hannah Montana. The movie was very.....special. I love the music though. It was all Miley Cyrus all the time. I just wanted to see the cute country boy. Lol. I went with my little cousins who knew like all the lyrics to all the songs. And I got a tad bit annoyed. But other then that I have done nothing but sit around and attempt to work on a school project. Fail. didn;t even start. I only have one stanza to a 4 stanza song. BOOHOO. I chose for my project that I was going too create a music video about the yolo basin. Now I am almost out of time with that. And on top of that I have to babysit again this weekend. FUN. Okay sooo, you know what I'm totally tired of? Commercials, I mean one time is enough right? But seeing the same one after every 5 minutes of watching the show I've been wanting to watch all day. I get sorta pissed when I know every word to a freaking Fed Ex commercial. Uhhhh, well anyway. Yes, I love Quest Crew with a passion. I think they are wicked boss dancers. Yeah, I just used wicked and boss in a sentence. Deal. Kay, that's it folks. SEEYA

Egg Awareness Day

Lol, happy easter! Today has been pretty fun so far...I was awoken by a bunny puppet which told me to get ready for church, then after that the fambam (+cuzzos) headed back to the house to have an easter egg hunt. Fun stuff...I got jumped for my eggs..(that's what she said.rofl.)then ended up with none, but hey, what's family for, right? Speaking of cousins, they left like two minutes ago, which is pretty cool, but now I' the one who has to clean up the mess. Oh goodness what a mess there is. But you will never guess, my mom is cooking not only one dish, but like 5 for dinner. And it's only gonna be me, brother, daddy, and her eating it all. I have no idea what it is, but I'm guessing it's the easter spirit, and I like it. Aw, I love my family:). Right now is the first time I've sat down without hearing screaming, violent video games, and whining..and it feels damn good. Haha. Anyway I'm gonna go get ready for dinner, yesss, BYE!

Bratty Cousins?

Yes, I have pretty bratty cousins. One of them kept me up all night with her loud voice...and once that loud voice went to sleep her cell phone went off (on loud) 4 times. Sheesh, I do not know what to do with them. Well my brother isn't my cousins, obviously, but he's apart of the bunch...he's like the leader of the bunch, and i am their parental guidance. Have been ever since birth. The object of their lives is to prank me. After watching Nigahiga on youtube....you know to the "Pwned" video. The game of today was "pwn ate wizzy as many times as you can today. loser has to do the dishes". I AM THE GAME! But whatever, they are the kids I am forced to love. Okay, cousin 1: Darla, she's the loud one. She has an amazingly creative imagination and speaks funny english. cousin 2:Michael, I would say he;s the brattiest, since he's an only child, he's used to getting what he wants, but not in this house. Haha. Anyway that's pretty much what I have to say on that note. Well now I'm off to play a game of halo with them, atleast I can beat them at something, right?

TWITTER MANIAC

Yes, indeed I am now addicted. I have spent all day, amazed at how demi lovato can share a conversation with john mayer....and I can read it. Uhm, yeah, I'm a freak. Haha. So that is a new obsession I have....I even logged into twitter before myspace...and then twittered about it. It was strangely amazing. And today I keep putting the word STRANGE and AMAZING at the same sentence. Today is a weird day. I spent most of my day watching Wongfu Productions videos while laughing my butt off at the same time (twittered that too). They are asian guys who make videos about asian people? I guess that's how I can explain it. Check them out right this second: http://www.wongfuproductions.com/ . I DARE YOU TOO! Okay, recap of last night though, cause I didn;t get to talk about that. I was up all night watching John and Kate plus 8....super addicting. Those cute little asian sextuplets that can't pronounce words right. It's like the rugrats in live form. I love that show with a passion . Last night it was when Cara, one of the twins and her dad went ti Utah to go skiing. How I wish to go skiing there one day. The snow looks amazing. Anyhow....ACE OF CAKES! Yes, it's comes on in an hour and I'm excited. That show has taught me more about backing then a premade box of cake mix has. It's amazing. There I go again with that word...AMAZING. Okay, I think I'm officially done. Kay, Bye.

Getting the Hang of it

Sheesh, who knew it' be so hard for me to understand how to work these freaking blog things, lol. Well first of all since it's spring break I guess updating this won't be too hard. Well first of all, I cannot stand spring break. It is the worst break of the school year because I always have the crappiest time. My mom always flakes when she says we're gonna go on a vacation...every single time. So I'm just stuck here at home, updating this....fun